to see my sun shine again..

i wake up each mornin' waiting for new light, something different to hit me. Repetition in some ways is good like when trying to learn a new math problem, but in other cases like life, variety is something that gives your life more volume, doesn't it leave it so stressful, boring, stale. I haven't been one my blog in alittle over a week, kinda sad, i know. A lot has happened in the last week, i guess most importantly is that i got baptized!

Baptism is a interesting topic. It's an outward expression of your inward reality. Well to be honest i was more nervous than anything, but something that was obvious and apparent to me the whole time, is that gods love has no bounds, he knows where my heart is, he knows he is my rock, even tho sometimes i tend to stand on sandy ground, if i fall, he picks me up, and to be brutally honest...
OK. side note. for some reason, the word clarity keeps popping in my head..is this a sign God? what are you trying to say? uhh i cant think of any other profound word other than clarity. maybe hes trying to tell me i need clarity in my repetitive life. present to me god, the thing you want me to see more clear, give me the clarity and the strength to realize what i need to be doing with and in my life.

OK, sorry. back to what i was saying.......what was i saying? shoot.
oh well, umm I'm getting my camera in the shop soon, gonna be taking allot more photos in the near future, so be on the lookout for that, oh and I'm getting some new software for editing, its so amazing, i cant wait to try it..ill stick a photo up, just so you can see what kinda shots ill be getting, and kinda how they're gonna look:
I'm getting very distracted, so i think I'm gonna go now blog, its been fun hanging out with you, well chat again soon.

Highschool sucks, i love huskies

So my day started off like shhhhhh but then sarah came over and we put a new stereo in her car which was exciting, then went to work, followed with a highschool football game.
Shoot, i really dont miss highschool, and even tho i didnt go to a legit highschool, i still feel like i went to enough events and football games to say i "experienced" it.
Just walking around and seeing these like little freshman guys grabbing little freshmans girls butts; that's just ridiculous. I dont wanna see kids making out every which way i looked. Annnd profanities flowing out of all their mouths like i dont even know. anyway, so thats that.
Came home to a gigantic apple pie made by one of mi besties. :)(yes i have besties)
i hate having friendships collapse tho..its hard to rebuild that foundation
losing friends is prolly one of the worst things ever..
tomrrow should hopefully be better. i kinda wanna get me a husky dog, that would be one the greatest things to ever happen to me. someone buy me a husky please. -__-
There so beautiful!
Just like women.
some one buy me a husky dog and woman..make sure both are beautiful..
ill be a happy camper!

Pool Boy

Today's post is gonna be short.
I'm currently listening to buddy guy...
All i did today was go with with my dad on a pool job.
which involved me cleaning the tile around the pool and doing other stuff.
ok so now I'm listening to billy currington...
Ive found myself listening to country ALOT more as of lately. For some reason, its really floating my boat, so to speak. Anyway, i love cleaning pools, its the best job. 100 bucks an hours to float in pool and blast the tile, and sometimes fix things. i love it.

Later today, i went to JR High youth group! i was fun.
alright that's it. ill catch you prolly tomorrow..

PS. Have you noticed country music is mainly about love? or sex.
its kinda the same as rap but with twangy guitars..hmm

Motivated much?

OK..so, im not motivated to do this write this right now, cause im super tired and ive got thins to do. (that didnt make sense)
anyways, my friend nate lytle introduced me to this artist by the name of Donovan Frankenreiter...well needless to say, he's great, thats all ive been listening to! An dlike i said yesterday i got new ipod so all day today ive been pretty much syncing up my 60 gigs of music on it. oh what a boring day.
Found out that my co worker might be pregnant..which sucks for her. cause she has no money.. haha
i was thinking, im so glad im not a woman, and have to go through the things women go through...i respect women so much. From giving birth, to wearing makeup, to PMSing to being unreadable...they deserve way more respect than us guys. were so gross.
Except we dont nee makeup to look good ;) All im saying though is that i would hate to give birth.
Go listen to donovan and ben harper.
it will sooth your soul.
goodnight

PS. Kristen Cavalarri is super sexy

Communication thoughts

While i was slicing some roast beef today in the deli, i was thinking...
Everybody has differnet ways of communication with another person, whether you know them well or not. Like, if u dont really know a person very well, but u have one thing in common and that is you play video games, well say you work with this person...
most likely that person is gonna come up to you or vis versa, to probably talk to u about the latest vid game or something that has to do with vid games. Until you get to venturing off into talking about something else, that the communication your gonna have with that person is vid game communication..
its weird.
there so many ways.
i know i do it.
you prolly do to.
think about it.

Here I Am..

Here i am, somewhat content in where i am in life, what i am doing, and who i have become. Here i am, laying on a cushion staring at a computer screen taping my fingers away at little buttons with letters on them. Here i am, not as happy as i could be, mabye the loneliest ive ever been.
The past couple days have been...dark. (that's the word that came to my head to describe them) I indeed was able to go to Truckee on the retreat with my church friends, i never knew how much savemart loves me. I am able to usually get off whatever i ask for, even if it is the day before. Not so bad eh? even tho i hate working in the deli, makes my clothes stink like fried chicken and is surronded in old lady drama!
Anyway, the trip was nice, nice to get away from all the stress, nice to stay in log sweet cabins, altho there was a tad bit of drama involved, i went home feeling like i learned something from the trip as far as leadership goes. I'm really excited to kick off a new year of leading my Jr. High small group :)Something that really keeps me spiritually in check is the kids i counsel, i love them with all my heart, and keeping them in line with worldly issues and with the walk with Christ makes me wanna be closer to God as well.
I'm getting baptized on Sunday, for all of you that go to COTF, you should come! and even if ure not, a good chunk of us from the youth group are getting baptized, its gonna be a cool experience, a good way to outwardly express how much i love Jesus. Also! its my birthday is 20 days i believe, im gonna be 19 ( im young i know) my parents gave me money today to go get an early present, so went and got me an ipod. so now i can portabalize my 70 gigs of music! :)
ummm, as of lately i love me some good country music, ive been listening to it on the radio a lot, and its starting to grow on me alot. Whether that be good or bad news. haha
i think this is long enough, i should be updating this frequently, so keep checkin back if u care. :)

good things & good friends

So im deciding to start a blog on my everyday thoughts in life, and my experiences as i live my life.
I want to share with the world whats going through my head..because sometimes it can be pretty unique. Other times not so much. Share with me your thoughts on these matters i bring up from now until i diminish off this earth.
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today was kinda blah, in fact ever since 80 percent of my good friends or just friends left for college, times have been blah. Im left to fend for myself, I'm like a lone cub * call me simba* lost from my all knowing pack of fellow lion friends, my lacking of support and failing attempts to make to new friends i feel like i can just wallow. I guess you can say i don't really like the way things are going right now, my job sucks, school is..time consuming, which seems i need more of, and my relationship with whom is my bestest friend Jesus isn't on the upandup let's just say. But i sure do love the friends i have, i hope to never lose any of them. And i never knew the internet networking site called facebook could be so addicting to me.I feel as if i hide behind my computer screen for any free time i have to just see what going on in my friends lives cause im not nearly interested enough in what my life has to offer me, or the possibilities i have of in this free country I live in.
But money is an issue for me.
I cant do just anything
Especially cause my dieing car is failing me
I'm seeing a light at the end of the tunnel, hopefully ill be able to go to Truckee on Friday..-_-